A few of my compositions

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Van G

This ethereal piece with synthesizer has an Asian mystic feel. I like the slow pace of it and the depth of the low notes, contrasted by the Asian style string lead that comes in during the second iteration. This one always reminds me a bit of the music of Vangelis – especially off the “China” album.



Pink Blues

Published this one under my “Tarnished Karma” moniker – a fictional band consisting of me.  And yes, that’s me in the picture, and there’s a whole story behind that!

This one is a lament of the questions women are asking even in our “enlightened” culture

Can you tell me, father, why you act like you’re so wise?

Can you tell me, mother, why the tears are in your eyes?

Can you tell me, brother, why you cannot hear my cries?

Can you tell me, sister, how to live with all the lies?



Haunting synthesizer piece and my current “theme song.” I don’t know, I just find this recording mesmerizing with its strange reflective melancholy yet uplifting combinations of sounds. This is a concept piece. It is made of three simple tracks – piano, bass woodwind, and strings. The design is intended to have the indistinct bass rise gradually in volume over the course of the entire recording until it eventually obscures the other two tracks, making the whole thing “muddy” and hence the title, “Murkey” as if recorded in a Murky Key.


Another of my musical compositions from the 1980s

The Beat


This one was intended to be a bit like some of the later Beatles stuff or maybe the “almost” bubble gum music McCartney started writing around his third Wings album. I like the rhythm change-ups in the middle of the song and also the George Harrison style riffs at the end of the first few bars, even though these are with synth rather than guitar. The style reminds me of something – I mean, “Something” – a song I used to play on the piano for my mom when I was in my early teens – it was her favorite Beatles song.


Not Quite

Text from when this song was written several years ago:  I wrote this piece while my daughter’s father-in-law was on the verge of succumbing to a six month battle with a particularly virulent cancer.  He was a kind and gentle man, always in good cheer, inclusive, and engaging.  His troubles began when he was putting on his sock one day and his leg broke from the pressure.  Turns out it was a tumor just below the knee.  The first operation scooped it out, but didn’t get it all.  A second operation attempted to stop internal bleeding at the site.  A third operation took his leg at the hip because the cancer in it had become too painful to bear.  A month later, it had spread throughout his system.  He went into hospice treatment at home, fell into fearful deleirum for a couple of weeks and died last night, the day after I wrote this song.  While I didn’t specifically create it for or about him, I know he was in my mind when I wrote it, and so I dedicate this one to him.


Rose’s House

Here’s a song I wrote back in the mid-1980s, just before I came out as transgendered. The lyrics are veiled references to my inner conflicts of the time.

I credit my songs of the time to both my original and current name, as they were something of a collaboration between my two personas.


Princess Di

This is an original instrumental piece in memory of Princess Di. I wrote this during all her memorial services. At the time, I was pretty depressed (not a rare condition for me in those days, though I’m all better now!) and so I sat around in my pajamas for two days, recording one take after another until I got it laid down the way I wanted. I’ve always felt it could use some additional instrumentation, but I squeezed out all the interest I had in the piece during that marathon session, so this is all you get.  Closest thing to true classical music I’ve ever written.



A nice little piano and drums instrumental piece. It has a laid-back band feel – sort of like what you might play after closing time when everyone else but the bartender has been booted out. Course, its just me on the synth doing multi-track, and I never had time to join a band, but anyway, that doesn’t mean I can’t get into the same groove from time to time.


Heart Corps

New Age style synthesizer piece with chorus. Sounds a bit like Enya – at least that’s what I thought of it while I was writing it. Of course, unless you’re consciously trying to parody or copy somebody, you always see other people in your own work, yet it still someone manages to capture your own style as well.



Wild little synthesizer piece like a musical storm. I honestly don’t know what possessed me when I wrote this one. Something must have, though, as it is just pretty darned weird. Oddly, I think I like the ending best, as it ends up (after all hell is breaking chaotically loose) on this single last wanky chord, just hanging out there in space all alone. By itself, this chord would be discordant, but in contrast to what just came down it sounds nearly harmonic!


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